remember the boy who tried to pick the right apple? Well he fell down the ladder and gave up.

Run boy run,the apple is a poison apple anyways.


Note to self: it's day 4. Still hard to sink it in that he's gone.need my a7x family to be with me.have not been sleeping well,recalling the memories we had.goodbye jimmy.

sometimes in life,you gotta let go of someone you love.

I've let him go but part of me died together with him.it's gonna take some time for me to heal.


I'm really sick and tired of people exiting my life without saying a word.

'Today would be a good day to express any feelings you've been holding back from someone you care about.'


hmmm not too sure about this coz we've not talked in days.

What's up with people who gives high hopes? My feelings have been played over and over again.I know the answer,I'm just scared to say it out because I prefer to run away from reality. Someone slap me pls so I can wake up from this bad dream.




The situation right now is critical but everyone is trying their best to be calm and take it in the face.It's like a hard punch for me,I'm bleeding but I can't feel the pain because again,I prefer to run away from the truth.It's like barrels of problems rolling down the plank non-stop.When will it ever stop?Will there be a moment once where my family can say 'We're fine now,everything's okay we don't need to suffer anymore.'It's not just the normal problem we're facing but we also have to face with relationship issues.Adults,I thought they're much more mature,I was wrong indeed.Much more sensitive,much more ignorant, much more shallow minded.By adults,I don't mean my parents.It's the other adults who hurt my parents.


I am lucky to still have some people around me who loves me and my family.My best friends,my close cousins,my siblings and my baby.
I'm sorry but I just had to let it out.Too much in my mind already and that was just the beginning.


'it's true,I am suffering in vain but don't worry I'm not living in vain'

What's sexier than my favourite comedian Dane cook?
with Ryan Reynolds hugging him.
:D